unnf i miss youuu
Hi, this is my boyfriend Chase.
I just, I just gotta vent.
Even if we do spend like 5 hours together, it’s not enough. I love this guy, so much. He’s my everything. Like, if I ever lost him. I have no idea what I would do. He’s my reason why I wake up every day and make it through the day. And he’s my reason to be alive.(Along with my best friend and dog). I think if I ever lost him, I’d just die. I’d die of a broken heart, or even because I’d be too depressed to do anything. And every time I tell him I love him, I feel like I mean it more and more every time.
He’s so talented, and amazing. He never yells at me, hits me, nor hurts me. He treats me like I’m his everything. And after dating so many assholes, this is what I need. I need him. And just him.
I don’t think you know pure euphoria till you can lay in someone’s arms all day, and not even the most silent of silence can tear you away from looking into their eyes. Not until you get the feeling that the whole world has stopped, and nothing is happening, except for that. That. That feeling of pure simplicity. The ambiance of being a kindergartener. The ambiance of bliss simplicity. And in that exact moment, you know what you wanna live for, and why you want to. And how, and who. And it’s with that person.
It’s when the thought of loosing them makes you want to just break down and cry, because you know that if they’re not in your life, you’re nothing without them. It’s how you miss everything about them. Even the simplest of things. And that, that’s when you know what you want in your life. And how amazing things can be, even if they’re small, or big. And that’s when you realize, this is life. This is what I want, who I want. And how I wanna feel. I want this forever.
well, not some guy
but a certain guy
when i’m not on skype with chase
when he comes back
I love my ex. And no matter what, even if it is long distance dating, I’ll do it, because I care about him. And I made a mistake by leaving him and dating my crazy insane ex (Patrick.) And he knows that. And having him even considering talking to me again like that is pure euphoria and luck.